No Chapter: ..............."Only God and Me are My Rule Makers!"..............by Julianna Rowe

Katerina's non existent Chapter:   .....Only God and Me are My Rule Makers!

Before I continue with Katerina’s story I need to address an issue regarding what I write:   My imagination, my anxiety level, my fears, my mind, allow no one else to interfere because no one is my “Rule Maker but God and me!”  If I write something you do not care for, do not enter into my blog space for much of what I write comes from factual happenings that I embellish or imagine.  Or do I?  If I write it in a manner you believe then I am doing what I set out to do:  WRITE believable FICTION!  Using my own and others life stories is what I do. It is no different than what a stand-up comedian does only this may be the reverse of that.  Maybe I could try to add some comedy to the shit Katerina went through in her life or maybe not. Maybe its all true and maybe it is not. I set out to hurt no one's feelings.

  
Life lessons come with pain and hiding the pain makes no sense to me. Been there done that.

I was thinking about the woman who wrote “Fifty Shades of Gray” of course not comparing Katerina’s life story to Anastasia Steele and or Christian Grey’s! God forbid had I done that in my children’s eyes yet not to say I couldn't.  And bless the woman’s retirement fund that did write “Fifty Shades of Gray” despite her children and or Grandchildren’s opinions.  Hell they weren’t going to take care of her in her old age, or send her on a magnificent trip to Europe or fulfill her BUCKET LIST.  She is/was on her own.  Whether Katerina is a dear friend, a daughter, an aunt, a Grandmother, or me, is no one’s business.  Read it, weep, and or learn from it, for learning doesn’t end in the classroom, we are on this earth, for our intellectual and SPIRITUAL development.  Hopefully we don’t simply die and turn to dust. 

I shall shake the guilt I was raised with and no longer be vulnerable to manipulations from anyone regarding my writing.